2WW

I know i am suppose to post all my details about my trip and all the highs and lows but all i can think about is my low egg production and praying the blessed one can hold on for dear life. I know i am a positive person and i am strong but i feel this is a weak point for me. Everyone had been asking "oh how was your vacation" and all i can think to say to them is "leave me alone i only produced 2 eggs and 1 made it!! what else do u want?" but of course that's being a B*. I am not a mean person but i think i DESERVE this happiness too. I am looking for something for myself for once and i really want this baby. I want to cuddle and bathe and smell and just hold her/him. i wanna say "go to you father" or "say mama, papa". i am just in a bad spot right now and need a moment to just dwell in the 2ww. GET POSITIVE AMANDA!!!!