After Math

Well, all the trimmings were done, i cooked and ate...enjoyed my time home with hubby, my sister and then it hit me like a slap in the face....

I know i'm not suppose to say anything bad about anyone (as my mother always said, then don't say it). But i cant hold my tongue and i hate to complain and vent...but i have to...MY ML (mother-in-law)...a piece of work..of all days to let me know how she really feels about me..(she never liked me but has no choice, really). She sat there before dinner and told me in her kitchen (thank GOD no one was around) that I, ME, Little old Me, treats her BAD, "like a stranger", and cried and everything..told me I have no decency and other words that were just hurtful....I was horrified, and on THANKSGIVING, as i prepare this wonderful dinner for everyone...what the hell man....i have been so depressed but cant show it cause my family is here for the holidays and dont want anyone to feel akward...my hubby asked me if i want to move, i said no b/c we really dont have the $$ right now...one problem at a time (job, india and then we'll see from there). Oh dear, why me. I've had a heavy heart and it will be for a while.

i thought i had t oget that off my chest. My hubby has heard me vent over 100x's...i love the holidays why rob my only joy...plus it gets more depressing every year without children to enjoy with!!!