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Saturday, May 16, 2009

My head is spinning..lol

I have been so busy with work and all i can think about is when is a good time to fly....when is it cheaper to fly? how soon can i go? what can i do to prepare myself (to have a better quality/quantity of eggs)?? I feel like JoJo (my surro buddy) and the questions are non stop.

what if this 2nd try doesnt work??
what if it does work, how or what do we tell people (in the 3rd trimester of course!)
what if something goes wrong during the pregnancy???

i am so scared like never before because i know all the risks much better this time and if we do get a negative, hubby would want to wait 3yrs+ to try agin....OH NO! what if i just stay in India and just keep trying, have him leave MANY samples...lol.....i just keep remembering how i felt when i got the email saying we got a negative. i was so hurt and blame myself for so long. (based on my blog can you tell i want a girl..lol...only because he does). i want togive him the title of daddy....

i have been back and forth with going. please keep us in mind when you pray, lets all hope for a miracle (twins perhaps to make up for last time...lol)

6 comments:

Carrie Jo said...

I hope and pray, Mandy, that attempt number 2 is much more successful, whoever you go with!

jojo said...

to keep moving forward. where else is there to go?

xxx

Tigerlilycat said...

Absolutely no where as far as we're concerned Jojo!! We had Plans A to E worked out, and luckily we fell pregnant (and have stayed pregnant!) on our third attempt - which was Plan C. Work out how much you can invest both financially and emotionally Mandy and go for it. Moving to India sounds like a great idea... : )

C. S. said...

Mandy, You guys are always in our prayers. We are looking to travel in August. Tickets are running $1700 a pop and we are nervous to say the least. Our tickets are a little higher because we are stopping in Bahrain to see some family friends. We are still in the research phase and found the cheapest airfare on cheapoair.com but if you find a better site, please let me know. Looking forward to following your blog as your journey continues.

Kerrie and Mark said...

Things will work eventually Mandy. We just need to take it all in stride, breathe and keep the faith. Jojo is correct - no where else to go but forward.
Kerrie

Mandy said...

You guys are all awesome... i gain confidence each day when i read your posts....THANKS A BUNCH!!!!

C.S.- Try teh following sites:
www.wego.com
www.yatra.com

best of luck with you all as well