Trying To Be Realistic

It's very hard to get excited and the thought of getting more and more into into it u do have more to loose and the more people u tell the more u have to explain and have questions towards u.....Although we only told my mom and brother, plus i cant help myself and tell a few close freinds at work..... i am sooo excited at times and can tell everyone we meet...but have to hold back. These past few days i havent allowed my self to get as excited because there is always a chance it doesnt work and i have to be prepared for that too...which i dont know if i can ever be prepared and be as strong as some wonderful ladies i've met along the way....but i'm still learning and growing with all their stories and posts, as it helps me to know i'm not the only one excited but cant be excited and told people and wish i hadnt ...its get too much at times.....but i will just do the best i can with everything and take it day by day (which i wish i can just fast forward) lol ...since we leave the end of next month..WOOHOO!!!!